Worry Wart

I'm still worried about my dad, I won't go into detail but he has to go back to the hospital on the 13th and I'm scared. I don't know what to do except pray which I've been doing non-stop for years and the past few months now. I know that I shouldn't worry because God's in control even though people always blame him for bad things happening. Satan is the one that's trying to destroy our lives not God, he probably lets Satan do certain things to us as a test and most of fail. Besides, Satan has been really pissing me off lately. Why is he picking on my dad? Why won't he just make me sick instead? I'd rather go through what my dad has been going through that way he won't have to suffer, I'd gladly die for my dad. And that's saying something because I won't lay down my life for just anyone. I really want to have everything that's been making my dad sick so he'll be back to his healthier self. Why? Why does my dad have to suffer? It's not fair. I know it's not God's fault and I'm doing my best to hold on my faith which has been crumbling away little by little, I'm really praying that my dad recovers so we can go back to our peaceful lives. Well on another more happy note, I've been chilling at Barnes and Noble today for about 8 hours now. XD I'll probably be leaving soon because I'm worried about my parents. Hopefully everything works out. :3